Resolutions... or Goals?

I don't know if I can say they're resolutions, but they are surely goals for 2012: The ones underlined and italicised also are high priority...

-Get to know myself, and take care of myself better: Physically, mentally, and intimately.
-Figure out and explore styles to do my own hair - I don't want to spend 100 dollars at the salon for something stupid!
-Get myself back into shape - I know I don't need to, per se, but I want to lose 5-10lbs before July, and get myself toned. That means eating right, and working out regularly. It'll be a good stress reliever.
-Bowl more. It really depends on how much money I have, but I'd like to join the league. It's sunday mornings, so it'll give me something to do while the wife is at work.
-Get my projects done on time: Big thing!
-Do the best that I can in school. I have a bad habit of just slacking off, 'cause I don't like the class...
-Try to find more confidence in myself and what I do, to not need "permission" of others.... I have a hard time that even when I want to do something zany, I seek desperately to have some form of approval from someone, anyone.
-Cook more! At the very least, to make left overs so that I don't splurge when I miss dinner or something... I should pick up a lunch box or bentou box when I get back. I'll have to find tasty things, so that the wife will help me.
-Get a Job. One of the high priority things, beyond school... I really need to make monies. Or at least get a start on learning.

Back in Texas~

It was a bit rocky while I was still in PA for christmas and new years, but it definitely was still fun. I'm back home, for the next week and a half!

As usual, the flight home was nerve wrecking...last time it was a crack in the wing.  This time? Engine failure. I mean really -- I don't know how many times it happens between when I fly, but jeeze, every single time when I do fly. Other than that, the flight was okay.

I'm by myself for most of the day, due to my parents working as usual. It's only my second day here, so I'm trying to figure out what type of grove I should get into while here. I told myself - no sewing while home. I will work on art, though admittedly, I'd prefer a desk to do so at. But meh. I'll be doing a mix of personal artwork, studies, and thesis work if I can.

Speaking of thesis, I need to speak with the wife about some questions that would be best asking, as well as looking around some fighting game sites to get ideas of what to poke at for questions - I just want to further develop my thesis as far as I can... Honestly, I don't know if it will work out in the end, but I'd like to at least attempt to publish a game at some point, haha. Anyway -

Today I had a dental appointment... X-rays, teeth cleaned, and a checkup. No new cavities, yay! My molars though, which of course needed the most work are still sore. I can barely bite down anymore. I know it's better than last time though, when my old doctor made it painful before I even did any sort of biting down. I'm not too afraid of them, and even dad agrees that even if trying to get an appointment is difficult as hell, they're much better (though last time was a bit questionable... a checkup and cavity fill before cleaning?! I also have to question that they didn't bring up the cavities that they pointed out last time... Oh well.)

When I got home, pretty much I spent time video chatting with the wife (though I did fall asleep before he went to work. ~_~) and messing with my cat while he slept at the base of my bed. Haha, you wouldn't believe the relief on my heart there is, from him not being distant towards me for 3/4s of my stay. It might change though, when mom comes back home.

Tomorrow I'll let myself be picked up by Sage, to make up for lost time since I didn't visit during thanksgiving break - and eventually I'll pick up some yarn from either hobby lobby or walmart, whichever place is cheaper. I'm gonna go ahead and do the genie braids while I'm still here. A good protective style for a few weeks, and I should be able to reuse the yarn as needed, lol. I'll still post on fb about if anyone heard about it, maybe.

Oh! Oh man, I took a chance in changing my style of dress when I went out one night with the wife to the grocery store. Leggings, bunny hood sweater dress, thigh high socks and boots, while wearing his hoodie too. ^.^ I felt pretty nice. I would like to dress up a bit more, and with my period (after lol.. 2-3 weeks duration) done, I feel more confidence in myself. I honestly tend to lose it during that time, since I feel that I sweat more than normal, and always feel like people can smell... so I keep myself in layers, bundled up, and at a distance. 

Thanksgiving Break!

Yesterday was a nightmare, but thankfully I didn't leave today.

Skimming over that, I went out with my father - it's so nice to do so! We went bowling, but honestly I'm not sure how much longer he'll be able to keep it up. Lately, it has been causing him pain, from what I've overheard from his coversations... I'm sure he tries not to worry me, though.

I know he realizes how much I worry about my cat when I'm gone. Heh, he offered to pay for a visit to see what's even wrong with Ekon. So, going tomorrow - I'm planning to try and get much work out of the way, so that I can go ahead and save up money for future appointments, and arrangements to keep him with me next year, regardless where I end up after graduation (or if I bring him up before graduation, even...)

Sometimes they're a dud...

I ranted talked with a few of my classmates... they said I should drop it at this point, that commission I was working on. That it's not worth it. That if they no longer contacted me, that the commissioner didn't think I was worth it. He seemed nice, even if majorly scatterbrained... Admittedly, it's going to hang heavy on my shoulders that I'm not doing, but rah... I have to wonder at this point if they even have my contact information. x.x

Well, at least it'll free up my schedule, I guess.

Self Portrait?

I thought I'd leave this one here, haha. Just a quick sketch of my (idea?) self... Thinking I might use a cleaned up version as my postcard.

Painter...

While I'm thinking about it now, I wanted to quickly note down this tip that I learned from a tutorial video - Making a layer set to "Colorize" filled with black lets you check your values. Booyow.

This week...

Seems like the hardest. Closed door crit, 50 percent of environment painting, essay exam... then marking stuff, if not wanting to work on them during thanksgiving break next week.
I also have a few peices I need to do - ASAP, so that I can do commissions for extra cash. Bleh, so much on my plate, I just want to have fun now.

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